"I'll never know, and neither will you, of the life you don't choose. We'll only know that whatever that sister life was, it was important and beautiful and not ours. It was the ghost ship that didn't carry us. There's nothing to do but salute it

from the shore."

Cheryl Strayed,

Tiny Beautiful Things

"If you could do anything, what would you do?"

Yep, that’s me at 14, a clueless baby!

(Clueless Babies would be a

great name for a band!)

I used to be an aspiring young singer. Singing and performing was like a fire in my bones. I even sang in a Top 40 Dance Band in the 80’s. Then this other thing happened - I met Dean. We married. We had Ken. Then Dan. Then Nick. Then Will. I didn’t have time to aspire anymore. That dream was swallowed up by new dreams. So over time, the fire went out.

Or so I thought...

“If you could do anything, what would you do?”

Rockin out with my girl mullet in the 80's

The new dream - surrounded by handsome men

It's the kind of question you ask your bestie on a road trip after you've listened to a dozen podcasts and you’re hoarse from singing along with the Hamilton soundtrack.

I’ve thought about this question before but never been brave enough to speak the truth aloud. This time, when a friend pressed me for an answer, it wasn’t just me who replied, it was the woman in that sister life, a stranger, calling out from a ghost ship, "Sing."

I realized the fire of that dream was still smoldering somewhere inside me. Could it be fanned back to some kind of life? Even for a moment?

And that is where you come in - my family, friends, neighbors, colleagues, acquaintances, person who found a flyer, crumpled, blowing down 9th Street like a tumbleweed.....help me make this CRAZY DREAM a reality and be part of the audience at my mini concert. Because a concert without an audience is just sad and lame.

Hate music? Bring earplugs and enjoy all the soft drinks and tacos you can eat from 44 Canteen. Hate tacos? Well, you’re a weirdo. But it’s ok, there will be dessert. And if you don't like dessert then I can't help you. Are we even friends?

After the Show

Did I really pull this off? Maybe...?